- OK! Everything went better than expected. The exam was way easier and shorter than I’d feared. I think I’ll get a pretty good grade.
- I am prepared for drinking today. I didn’t take my meds last night which of course meant that I didn’t get any sleep but at least I shouldn’t have side effects this time (last time was terrible enough, getting completely wasted after like 5 beers, tonight I need to drink a lot more than that to receive an overall patch)
- I have a prospective tenant for the summer which means that I’ll be able to stay in my parents’ house and I won’t have to pay rent for this flat in Helsinki. I really want to spend time with my mum, you know, because of her illness.
- Tomorrow I’ll find out if I get the cleaning job. I’m so nervous, I really want it because I need the money quite desperately.
- But now I’m in a hurry, I need to get into my student overalls and go out!
OK. This is the plan. I’ll force myself to wake up early tomorrow and quickly go over the topics for the exam. It’ll be fine. I’m not completely fucked.
PS. Sorry for these posts guys, this is the last one. I’m just freaking out a little bit because I was supposed to do 7 courses this spring and now I’m only completing 4 of those courses (3 if I fail tomorrow’s exam). Part of me just wants to give up and lie down and die but I mustn’t! I need to pass these exams, just to prove to myself that I can achieve something, however little.
can someone just throw me in the bin? the world will be a better place
I can but marvel at my own ineptitude.
*takes a deep breath*
OK. Let’s not make a big deal about this. I know I’m going to pass. Yes, if I’d studied I would get a better grade, but it’s too late now. There’s nothing I can do now but promise myself I’ll try to BECOME A FUCKING RESPONSIBLE ADULT SOME DAY FFS
hah a oops I also just realized I have one exam tomorrow
I thought it was on the 30th
I haven’t prepared for it at all
HOW did I even manage to fuck up so many things
oh well, what fucking ever. I think I’ll pass tomorrow’s exam. I’ll get a bad grade but I’ll probably pass
haha I hate myself oh my god
in german, we don’t say “let’s go” we say “jetzt geht jeder noch mal aufs klo und dann reiten wir los” and i think that’s rad
"im a woman and im not offended?!??!!"
after years of searching without success, i have found her. the one. behold: the spokesperson of the entire female population. bask in the glow of her internalised mysogyny. bask, my friends.