Thursday, April 24, 2014
  • OK! Everything went better than expected. The exam was way easier and shorter than I’d feared. I think I’ll get a pretty good grade.
  • I am prepared for drinking today. I didn’t take my meds last night which of course meant that I didn’t get any sleep but at least I shouldn’t have side effects this time (last time was terrible enough, getting completely wasted after like 5 beers, tonight I need to drink a lot more than that to receive an overall patch)
  • I have a prospective tenant for the summer which means that I’ll be able to stay in my parents’ house and I won’t have to pay rent for this flat in Helsinki. I really want to spend time with my mum, you know, because of her illness.
  • Tomorrow I’ll find out if I get the cleaning job. I’m so nervous, I really want it because I need the money quite desperately.
  • But now I’m in a hurry, I need to get into my student overalls and go out!
loverofbeauty:

George Orwell: 1984     Original corrected manuscript - completed December 1948 
(Source: beatbopped, via holy-scraps)

loverofbeauty:

George Orwell: 1984     Original corrected manuscript - completed December 1948 

(Source: beatbopped, via holy-scraps)

he inhaled his scent. he smelled of (ingredient 1), (ingredient 2) and something undefinable, that was uniquely (name of buttsex partner) every single fanfiction uploaded in the last two years oh my god  (via brood-of-froods)

(Source: meiringens)

If life were merely a habit, I should commit suicide; but even now, more or less desperate, I cannot but think, ‘Something wonderful may happen.’ It is not optimism, it is a rejection of self-pity (I hope) which leaves a loophole for life… I merely choose to remain living out of respect for possibility. And possibility is the great good. Frank O’Hara, Early Writing, 108-9 (1/22/49)

(Source: trashingdays)

bigrnac:

“everyone has their off days” I tell myself 15 days in a row

(Source: ouijasquiji)

womb-of-reefer:

How The Face Changes With Shifting A Light Source

this is one of the coolest things on tumblr

OK. This is the plan. I’ll force myself to wake up early tomorrow and quickly go over the topics for the exam. It’ll be fine. I’m not completely fucked.

PS. Sorry for these posts guys, this is the last one. I’m just freaking out a little bit because I was supposed to do 7 courses this spring and now I’m only completing 4 of those courses (3 if I fail tomorrow’s exam). Part of me just wants to give up and lie down and die but I mustn’t! I need to pass these exams, just to prove to myself that I can achieve something, however little.

can someone just throw me in the bin? the world will be a better place

I can but marvel at my own ineptitude.

*takes a deep breath*

OK. Let’s not make a big deal about this. I know I’m going to pass. Yes, if I’d studied I would get a better grade, but it’s too late now. There’s nothing I can do now but promise myself I’ll try to BECOME A FUCKING RESPONSIBLE ADULT SOME DAY FFS

hah a oops I also just realized I have one exam tomorrow

I thought it was on the 30th

I haven’t prepared for it at all

HOW did I even manage to fuck up so many things

oh well, what fucking ever. I think I’ll pass tomorrow’s exam. I’ll get a bad grade but I’ll probably pass

haha I hate myself oh my god

(Source: hell0grace)

lycantrophies:

in german, we don’t say “let’s go” we say “jetzt geht jeder noch mal aufs klo und dann reiten wir los” and i think that’s rad

whatbethsays:

"im a woman and im not offended?!??!!"

after years of searching without success, i have found her. the one. behold: the spokesperson of the entire female population. bask in the glow of her internalised mysogyny. bask, my friends.

sp0tlessmiind:

thescarletwoman:

mennaoawad:

riddle me that, mankind

THANK YOU. Such a perfect way to phrase that. 

YES.

sp0tlessmiind:

thescarletwoman:

mennaoawad:

riddle me that, mankind

THANK YOU. Such a perfect way to phrase that. 

YES.

(Source: veganmenna)